work.

maybe its just me.
maybe I'm a pessimist.
but my job, its just not me. Retail?
I thank God for giving me this job, i do. but
its so BORING. more then half of the time im standing by the door greeting people.
my schedule sucks and i have to work sundays. this is not going well at all.
i dont see myself fitting in. i cant wait to move back to San Antonio. but whats sad is
i was better off at fsnb. why did i quit? why am i so dumb..... and not only that, the way i feel is confusing!!!
at afb i felt like i owned the place .... here i feel so awkward and incopetent.
maybe retail just is not my thing ...but i guess it will have to do for now.
(and the fact that they cant get anyone to work there and nobody stays for very long
scares me.)
Dicks Sporting Goods. is it really that bad? i guess we'll see.


idk

its 3 am im going to bed...

(now im gonna have matchbox 20 in my head all night.)

the good life

So I got a job!! Ya bbys its true I'm gonna be working at Dicks Sporting Goods as a Front End Coordinator. Ill basically be supervising the cashiers and greeters and stuff and I'm super excited about it. I've been looking for a job since january and for them to even call for an interview was an answer to prayer! I went in for the interview and the girl was like oh I'm gonna have u talk to our store manager now and then to have him tell me to come in for the final interview the same day was so exciting! I'm not sure when I start they r supposed to call me tommorow and let me know anyways just thought I'd share the good news! Also I got a blackberry curve!!! Our phone's screen had broken and we were without a phone for a while but the day I got the job we were actually able to go get the phone :) which is why this is gonna be short I'm blogging from my cell so its not as easy to type out.... all in all its been a good week! For lee too seeing as he got into his buddies squad and life at work for him is better:) hope everyone else is having a good week and ready for the weekend!
Peace Love and Lipgloss :]
-Lola

Busy Busy Bee.

Oh The busy Life. How im busy and jobless seems to amaze me more and more everyday!

Sure there are boring days, but lately ive been as busy as a bee.

I wake up way to early, i go to the gym, i clean , i cook , and im constantly job searching. The days fly by so quickly and

Its true what they say, the older you get the faster time flies!

With That Being Said....

Im starting to feel so old lately

i know ive been married for almost 3 years but i feel like the responsibilty is just setting in.

the reality is when i had a job, i didnt have this much time to think . i just did what had to be done. and went on. now everything seems overwhelming when i think of it all,

i mean im an adult.

i cant blame anyone else for my actions or make excuses. and i have no idea now, why i wanted to grow up so bad..... to get away from rules? which might i add came with a roof over my head , food on the table and me not having to worry about it?!

anyways thats a whole other blog!

so ya, time...

its a crazy thing to be busy and not be busy for God.

" God gives you your days off, what would he want you to do with them?"

my pastor said that in his message last night. i never thought of it that way. im so busy. busy for lee busy for me but im not busy for God. When i think of all the things i used to do for God and i look at my life now, im ashamed. Im not even in Nursery here, or Choir,I used to be on fire for God. With All the busy things in my life, i realized last night that i wanna be busier for Him.

i know this is kind of short but thats it for now, i have a job interview at 10am tommorow at Dicks Sporting Goods so hopefully i can get some income in to get a new phone :D

Today My Heart Broke .

ok so sometimes... like when im having one tree hill withdrawal

i go to this website -www.onetreehillblog.com

to look up filming schedules and whatnot on my favorite show -next to the office-

because the only good thing about living in Jacksonville Nc

is im 1 hr away from Wilmington NC :](where they film oth)

but today as i was following some old post with some good news came some bad.

good news- Its picking up for a 7th season, making it the longest running show filmed in

wilmington-surpassing good old Dawsons Creek by 22 episodes.

good news- i dont want it to end so this is a plus for me

Bad News- Hilarie Burton aka Peyton Sawyer is not comming back for it.

what? how can there not be a peyton?? why cant her and lucas ever be happy?

maybe im just a little too obsessed, maybe i shouldnt care, but this seriously ruined my day.

if shes getting killed off, i cant bare to watch it.

oh and supposedly Chad Michael Murray is Leaving too, but its not confirmed.... i personally dont believe it because how do u run a show without the main character?!

anyways theres a new episode on monday and i cant wait to watch it,

and they r still filming 2 more episodes for season 6 so hopefully i can get down to wilmington

and meet James Lafferty before he up and leaves too!

as for now i think im going to have to rewatch the 1st season for old times sake

wish my trishy poo was here with me!

Motivation.

So.. Since Last Thursday.... Katje and I have started working out.
I mean we are super motivated... i may not be as outward about it as she is
(today she was dancing to "shake your groove thing"!) but im super excited about
my new love for the gym.
im starting to love being sore. it sux but it makes me feel like ive actually done something :D

but i have to say, here are some things i didnt expect

1. i didnt expect yoga to be so freakin hard, i mean what is that? how to people bend that far?
its not for chubby people i have to admit my flabby flab gets in the way of some moves but hopefully in a couple of weeks or however long it takes ill be able to be bendy :]

2. i so did not to expect to find out how uncordinated i am.
its hard for me to follow directions, and ive come to find that i forget to breathe during some excersises and that gets me thinking how i cant breathe, which throws my whole move off.

3. i didnt expect some people to be so effin cute.1
i cant wait to get a job to buy new clothes. workout clothes!

4. aand lastly, i didnt expect it to be fun!

thats about it about workout. tommorow its off to yoga at 8:30 and pilates after that its my first pilates class so im pretty excited!

Raining on Sunday

Rain Does Alot Of Good For Some.
For Me, IT Makes Me LAzy as HECK!
mostly the reason i disliked washington in the begining.
today ive got absolutley nothing done, sure theres dishes to be washed
and a bed to be made
but instead ive done nothing.
take that back.
i got my taxes done. which wasnt too exciting either.
anyways it also makes lee wanna do nothing too, like sit inside and play
video games allll day looong.
lol i didnt even wanna cook.. we ate hot dogs for dinner.

anyways just thought id write a bit to pass the time,
today we decided when i move back home in july that instead of
me living with my sister im gonna get an apartment.
which im kind of excited about but ive been searching online and all the nice apartments
on the southside are low income housing-which i wont qualify for,
and all the rest are crappy lookinng! but i dont wanna live far from where i work.
but from the looks of it thats how its gonna end up.
im kinda excited to have my own place.
(i can finally decorate it girly!)
but im almost positive im gonna spend most of my days and nights
worried sick about lee.
but lets not get depressed about that now.

well that sums up my day
taxes, nothing, hot dogs, apartment.
still no job.
hopefully someone will call this week
at&t is hiring, im hoping they will call, that seems kinda fun :]

until next time

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