Give Me Real Dont Give Me Fake.

Last night, our pastor preached on "the foes of true friendship"
it was a really good message. i thought id share the main points.
1] Show: friends will be there as long as things are good. but when things start to look ugly, they scatter away
2]Know: the more they get to know about you the less they start to like you, some people will
leave if they know too much of the back stuff.
3]Go: thats what they will do if things get to rough.

A true friend will stick no matter what, almost like a marriage. when ruth and orpahs husbands died and all they were left with was naomi their mother in law, orpah saw that naomi had nothing left to give her, so she left. but ruth,told naomi she would follow her until death, even though she wasnt certain of where she was going or what they woul
d be doing when they got to naomi's native land, but she knew that she was her friend and she stuck by her,

with that message it had me thinking about friendship.

Friend: One Attached To Another by Affection or esteem; a favored companion.

yes we all have friends, but how many would stick by you if things were tough? who would stick by me? who are my true friends.
and im not talking about myspace friends, or facebook friends. while some are true, others just add you to their myspace to be nosy or critisize.
im talking real friends.

im saying this because here in jacksonville, nc i know i have no real friends, and i have to say its bothering me some.

im the type of person who is used to being surrounded by alot of people, its just natural for me and to be cooped up in a house all day is just , well unnatural.
i used to be the heart of most things, i used to be able to make friends right off the bat. and lately i dont feel like i can just walk up to someone and strike up a convo
ive been a member of grace baptist church since early january and i dont feel like i know anyone.

i guess i just need to put myself out there more.
but i dont wanna be a victim of fake friends. ive done it before, and while i know i shouldnt care what people think. i cant help it.
IT MATTERS TO ME.
im one of those ppl who cant stand being not liked.

[i keep writing but dont feel like this is going anywhere]
i have alot of expectations in people
alot
and when i get let down. its like someone kicked my puppy.
ive been dealing with some friendship issues.
being lied to, or given broken promises.
ive not been too happy about it.
its pushing me away... and it makes me skeptical.
im thinking this is where i stop trusting
and this is where i guard my heart.
and this is probably why i dont have anyone here.
but idk, like i said i feel like this is going nowhere.
so im gonna stop.