Change.

So. I know its been a while and i said i was gonna blog every week and yada yada yada. i havent, being me right now is really difficult. there are many reasons why but the biggest reason of all is.... drumroll please...................................CHANGE. Laura Diane Medlin (formerly Perez,as i have been reminded of many times this weekend) does not do so well with change! and in the last couple of months, ive had to:
Say goodbye to my hubbins.
Move Across the country.
Get rid of most of my belongings.
Turn my Beagles into "outside dogs"
Get Adjusted to having cable.
Get Back in Church.
And Move back into my parents house.
oh and did i mention My Husband isnt here to help me through any of this???!
its kind of a tough thing to do.
Mentally.
and Lee took the hard drive with all of our music. so not even Coldplay therapy.
it would just remind me of him anyways.
i definatley am not sorry i came home, but i am sorry for making this blog a sort of Laura Pity Party.
i just wanna ask out there, to anyone whos reading this,
How does one deal with so much change?
it has to be possible. i obviously have gone through it before, moving across the country and whatnot.
but never ALONE.
in fact i dont think ive done anything alone. ive always had some sort of support group.
and now, i feel like ive lost contact with the world.
In Washington, it was like i could walk next door and talk to Misty.
Drive down the road and have oth marathons w/Trish.
and the other girls who became family and got me used to Military life.
In North Carolina the same thing. ive been lucky to have neighbors that become really good friends(KATJE!)
but San Antonio, i just dont belong.
i feel like i cant remember what i did when i lived here before.
Church?
i feel so out of place there.
i feel so uneeded here, everyones lived their lives without me.
anyways... thats it for now, sorry its a little imbalanced, im running on 5 hrs of sleep.
a 10 hr drive and 1 meal for the entire day.
Chris Martin is calling my name.
-Laura<3