Grateful.

Today is a sad day.
We just found out a dear friend of ours Kevin Cueto got killed in Afghanistan.
Although i wasnt close to him, it got me thinking about everything our Marines
give for this country. For our freedom.
Time, Money, Family, a steady schedule, Sleeping in, Facial Hair, These are just a few things. They tear down their bodies and some , like Kevin, give their lives.
Its ridiculous how badly they get treated here. and even more so about how idiots who have their freedom because of our military oppose the war.
Lee and I have been counting the days down till we get to go home, and before today, i was honestly kinda losing respect for the military. but this incident changed my view completely. Kevin was the first person i actually knew to die over there. Right when i was starting to think it didnt matter, the war didnt matter , the military didnt matter. this happend. Im sorry it took this to realize but from today on , im going to cherish life more and be more grateful for my freedom, because america is great, i have the right to make my own choices.
So i wanna thank him for the laughs and for his friendship and for giving his life just so i can have my freedoms. I know ill see him again one day and i know hes in a much better place than this life.

Stupidity.

It continues to amaze me.
The amount of stupidity that people carry around in themselves is jaw dropping
Unbelievable.
Dear strangers that call me everyday all day long
I'm not sitting here on the other side of this phone holding your packages/checks/
Christmas gifts/bday cards hostage
I'm trying to help you. I do not know your every situation so please don't expect this of me
If you continue to: cuss,argue,raise your voice at me, talk to me like IM the stupid one
Your calls will continually be "disconected :)
Thanks.
Laura
Yes there is a person on the other end of that phone line!
Thank God for the "release" button, for that which I might not get through the day.

-L

beat it.

The dog tore up a roll of toilet paper
And somehow I'm being blamed for it.
This is Normal.
Something goes wrong, beyond anyones control and its my fault.
Normal.
Feeling absolutely fine when things are at their worst.
Normal.
What's the stopping point?
Can someone hit the breaks please?
Movies lie to us, music makes us believe its real but is it?
Watched 500 days of summer last night. Why don't I feel love?
Does it exist?
Is it bullshit? Fantasy? Unrealistic?
Today ... I think so.

update

the new job is working out i think.
i did the whole hanging out with the co-workers thing this weekend and
it was such a blast, sans husband :[ but i think it was better that way (sorry lee)
getting up @ 5am is getting easier, but then again any excuse for getting up in the morning and getting paid for it, is worth it.
cant wait for my next pay check :]
thanksgiving is this week and prepping for that is always fun. cant wait to make pumpkin pie! of course anything with pumpkin is fabulous.
going to get ready for my day, listening to Adele. music is my life source. i probably wouldn't be able to wake up or function if it wasn't for music.

PANDORA SAVES LIVES.

until next time....

Dear Diary.

i haven't been blogging. instead Ive been going old school lately.
writing in my journal.
its simply therapeutic.
plus, i feel like nobody even reads this thing.
but heres a little update.
1. got a new job
2. got a fantastic apartment.
3.got a new obsession with shopping online.


cant wait to get a paycheck, so i can actually go shopping.
thats all ive got for today. but thats probably due to the fact that its 545 am.

"im just disappointed in you"

MARRIAGE. Nuff Said.

feeling a little down today.

Fakeness.
its becoming too much to deal with.
friends?
so much for that.
feels like i don't know what those are anymore.
people who talk to you, but don't see you.
see you, but don't talk to you.
so much is going on around me and i feel helpless.
nobody needs my help, nobody knows i need their help.
promises broken, marriages faded, relationships torn.
feels like everyone around me is falling apart.
i probably shouldn't care so much, but unfortunately that's my downfall.
thinking I'm the one who can fix everything, only leaves me broken in the end.
definitely need a pick me up.